Surely knowledge and weight are positively coorelated

The original purpose of this blog was to write about my journey to weight loss and new health. However, as sometimes happens in life things evolve once the ball gets rolling, and I've noticed that over the last few months losing those grad school pounds has become less important as other things have taken precedent. I do still stand by my former statement, that a positive relationship surely exists between smarties and flabbies (at least in my case!) Ever had a day when you just felt awkward? Ok, granted I probably have more of those days than the average duck, but man today I either felt brushed off or like I was getting on somebody's nerves. I must have flipped my stupid switch on. It was a weird day, not exactly crawl in a hole and die day, just feel weird and uber conscience day. At one point I jokingly thought to myself (after I confirmed that yes, the stupid switch had been flipped to the "on" position), that heck they shouldn't have been so quick to award me any social work student of the year or congratulate me for blah blah blah...lol anyways, not to appear ungrateful but I do tend to have nagging doubts about myself, and sometimes my abilities- especially when I'm put into a spotlight and then do something stupid. So, grace from all would be good, and since I am constantly begging for it I may as well mention the importance of giving it. At the end of a long, awkward day, the thing I want most from people is grace. Grace for my slow reaction at the check out counter, grace for my inability to get dinner prepared before 9 p.m. EVER and to do other general housekeeping things, like laundry. Grace for my lack of motivation and sloth-like participation in group work and grace for myself- afterall, no one's perfect. What I am trying to say, to myself and others, is that this is a very stressful time of year, probably for a lot of people, so be forgiving and ease up a little (on others and yourself!) I know I put too much pressure on myself and am disappointed when I fall short of my own expectations- and this is just not in school, but work and at home. I have this idealization of the perfect woman- educated, profession, good with people, fun, house spotless, works out everyday and never eats fastfood. And I'd really like to be all those things all the time- I seriously lack the ability to tell people no! And it is just exhausting. My prayer tonight is to give myself a little more grace. I definitely want to be cognizant of being graceful to others as well, but as an awkward day comes to a close, I think the most important relationship I can give grace to is the one with myself.